The Quest for Employment

As I’m sure many of you have experienced, searching for jobs is a daunting and precarious task. In the past few weeks that I have been looking, I have applied for over twenty jobs, and possibly heard back from… three.

The fact that plenty of potential employers do not even have the courtesy to inform you they don’t want you (or write something diplomatic like “we are sorry, but we have already filled the position”. It’s not that challenging, is it?) is what really grinds my gears.

I heard back from a bar job (not one I was ecstatic about possibly having, but a job is a job) who called to say “are you still interested in working for us?”.

Obviously, I replied with yes (though, I like to think I phrased it to sound a little bit more excited). They then, equally positively, said “great! We’ll call you tomorrow to sort out when you can come in for a trial.”

And guess what? I never heard from them again. I feel as though this sums up most people’s efforts to find a job.

Now, I’m going to be honest, I’m hardly over-qualified. I have limited experience, as travelling is not the best time to launch a career. For someone my age (nineteen), having previous experience in certain areas is extremely unlikely. Actually having your CV (or resumé) chosen to be looked at is equally unlikely. So when potential employers advertise employment saying “experience required” it makes our lives exceedingly difficult.

How I feel most employers really are...

How I feel most employers really are…

I feel as though this is a bit too much of a rant, but truth be told it is the only interesting thing happening in my life right now.

Coming back from travelling and returning home, actively searching for a job (and trying desperately to make sure it is not a job I will detest) is a serious blow to the feeling of “freedom” that I acquired on my Gap Yah (I swear, it sounds wrong to simply say gap year. Though, technically, it wasn’t a gap year… it’s more Gap Yahs than anything).

On the positive side, I do have a job trial tomorrow working as Front of House at a Greek restaurant, so we’ll see how that goes. Luckily, that place did not insist on previous Front of House experience.

Working in a pub sounds like the way forwards to me (I’m not sure if “pub” is a universal term or not… to you Americans, a pub is more or less a bar, but tends to have a very relaxed vibe (obviously where we all speak in our traditional English accents and guffaw at silly things that Americans would find tedious). They also tend to have fireplaces and a low buzz of conversation opposed to LOUD MUSIC). My hope is that when everyone leaves for university, all the jobs shall open up and they’ll have no option but to employ me. Yes, this would be good.

As an end-note, I seem to have delved back into a teenage angst lifestyle and have discovered the delight of Halestorm. Who rock. Thought this would be worth mentioning for no reason.

Also, this Tumblr post cheered me up after so many… I was going to call them rejections, but they weren’t even that. They were ignores. Goddamn word-that-doesn’t-exist.

I'm going to try include a Tumblr picture in every post. Because it makes me happy.

I’m going to try include a Tumblr picture in every post. Because it makes me happy.

The Art of Youtube Vlogging

That’s something I’ve always wanted to do: vlogging.

In fact, the reason I started blogging was because of vlogging. I became interested in video-blogging about a year ago, yet soon realised I lacked the confidence and the audacity to start. Maybe if I’d pushed myself (something I’m really not very good at) I would’ve found it easier. So, I decided that blogging was the nearest thing and then it snowballed!

I think it requires a certain skill to vlog in a manner which appeases watchers. Obviously anyone can record themselves speaking but the good or famous vloggers are the ones who manage to ensnare the watcher by being charismatic (whilst talking to a camera… that’s the part I struggled with) AND knowing what to say. Of course, having a good quality recording device helps…

Knowing what to say is key to vlogging as well, from what I can tell. I struggle to think of what to blog about (hence this petty blog post), let alone what to talk about to a camera. The editing as well. Jesus, don’t even get me started on that. Having been interested in film-making when younger, I know what a struggle it is to edit clips or footage together. Imagine doing that week-in week-out. Wow.

See, this is why I admire vloggers. They’re there to entertain. And they do a stupendous job at doing so. Not everyone is going to like the same vlogger, but that’s the same with anything person-related in the world. I expect there are many people out there who find my blog utterly unbearable and avoid it like the plague, at the same time as people who like my blog (at least, I hope so).

Vloggers must feel like such fools though. Talking into a camera about random things. I always think the same about film/movie stars. In films yeah, it looks great. But whilst filming scenes there is an absence of music, an absence of the atmosphere the film is meant to be in, so they just have blurt out their lines and never seem fazed. I’d personally be on the floor, red-faced and dying of embarrassment. I always think of Benedict Cumberbatch here, playing the part (rather well I might add) of Smaug the dragon, in the Hobbit. They used face-capture so he had to perform all the facial expressions that you see upon Smaug, which involves a lot of shouting. Man he must’ve looked hilarious. Then again, Andy Serkis playing Gollum… just a man in white spandex. Wow.

Moving back to vloggers, I thought I’d point out two of my favourites:

The first being Jack Howard. I personally think him, and his humour, are hilarious.  He’s made some quiet entertaining short films with various friends as well which are worth a watch!

My other favourite, is Nanalew. Made famous by her bizarre but fantastic video of Sail by Awolnation, her videos are just so heartwarming to watch. She manages to make truly beautiful videos, as well as having some which show her for the utterly barmy girl that she seems to be!


And there you have it. My views on vlogging… Man I need better ideas.

The Fear of Being Judged by the People you Know…

Apparently a fear of being judged by people is just known as ‘social phobia’… I was hoping for some big fancy word that I could use to discombobulate and bamboozle everyone with but evidently the English language is my enemy… How upsetting.

Anyway, what this blog was really meant to be about is to do with my fear of being judged by people who I actually know (and in most cases, like). This blog idea has stemmed from certain members of my friends or family wanting to read my blog (you know who you are, you evil spawns of Satan…).

The thing is, as anyone who has seen me on the spot or anything like that knows, I have a horrible tendency to go bright red. You know when people go red due to feeling embarrassed? yeah, that’s not me… It’s not that I FEEL embarrassed, I just LOOK like I am. It’s a horrible curse.

When it comes to writing (this blog for example) I am fine with writing whatever I want because I know that most people who read it will never realistically meet me. Now people I know have started to read it however, I’m feeling a little bit more nervous about what I write, as I am truly afraid of being judged and ridiculed… Because, let’s face it, it’s hardly great literature. It’s just a blog which the primary reason for being written is to write down all the weird, wacky, tedious, dull things that pop into my head. And I’m enjoying it. So, what I have to say to the side of me that feels embarrassed or judged by people I know is: FUCK. YOU.